Yan Benya: 2006 alumnus of the Chinese Department of our college，Worked in Tibet after graduation in 2010，Now working in the Gongjue County Office of Qamdo, Tibet。
This article is excerpted from a recent letter he wrote to his Shandong University teacher，Published with edits and changes。
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I often use four words to describe myself: youth、Dream、Passion、Challenge。Working in Tibet is an adventure。Always unwilling to accept mediocrity，Thinking about burning your youth where the motherland needs it most，This is one of my motives for going to Tibet。
Enter Tibet in July last year。Thinking about the two goals of working in Tibet on the train: I have changed because of Tibet，Tibet has changed because of me。Just arrived in Lhasa，Meet students from other universities who work in Tibet，Very excited。Posted a message on Weibo at that time: "July 2010，Nanjing University、Wuhan University、Shandong University、Xiamen University、Shanghai Finance、More than 200 graduates from more than ten universities including the Central University for Democracy and Humanities，Gathering in the Holy City of Lhasa，A gathering of elites。We are the educated youth of the new era！”
bet365 live casino reviewino blackjackWhen reporting to the Human Resources Department of the Autonomous Region，The leader in charge of distribution told us: "We are all graduates of prestigious universities in the mainland，He is the proud son of heaven。Go to work in Tibet，I won’t let everyone be wronged，Try not to assign you to difficult areas。"We have taken reassurance。
I didn’t expect the allocation result to come out，We have 6 students from Shandong University who are going to Qamdo。At that time，We hugged each other，All with tears，I said, "We will live and die together from now on、Brothers sharing weal and woe"。At this time，Zhao Xiaoting of Wuhan University died while teaching in Guizhou。We are all thinking about it，Our lives may have to stay in Qamdo forever。This is the most difficult time after entering Tibet。
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August 19，Report to Gongjue County, Qamdo，Then he was assigned to work in a government office，Mainly doing file sending and receiving、Drafting work。I always feel that this kind of work is a waste of energy、Waste of time。After joining work，If you are not ready to return to the mainland，I may have been consumed by this trivial and boring work and have no passion at all。
Teacher，I always feel like living in a ravine here。Inconvenient transportation is only one aspect，What’s more important is the people here。They seem to be living in the 1990s in the Mainland，Cannot integrate with the mainland in many aspects。In college，Teachers and students are very thoughtful，If bet365 games best slotsyou talk about it casually, it’s ancient and modern, Chinese and foreign，Sea, Sky and Sky、eloquent。Here，There is almost no common language with everyone，I even doubt whether I am too aloof and arrogant。
The local living conditions are indeed very difficult，It’s hard to imagine in the mainland。Probably after November，All water pipes are frozen，I still have to choose water at home。Frequent power outages，Call for a few hours every other day。Just started，I sit in bed at night，Put a small computer desk on the bed，Wearing gloves、Reading with candles。Compared with conditions in mainland cities，Big difference。
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Teacher，Maybe you have never been to Tibet。Many people want to come to Tibet，Whether you want to travel，I still want to work in aiding Tibet，Everyone has a Tibet in their heart。Here I will briefly talk about my understanding of Tibetan education。
Before entering Tibet，I have always felt that the economic development of the western region is lagging behind，Insufficient education funds，Insufficient teaching staff，Resulting in educational backwardness。But reality completely changed my impression of Tibetan education。Education expenditure is a special national fund，Completely borne by the state，Accounts for the largest proportion of our county’s fiscal expenditure。The state provides free food for Tibetan students、Enclose、Bao goes to school。Currently primary and secondary school teachers generally bet365 live casino reviewino blackjackhave full-time undergraduate degrees。But，Most parents are unwilling to let their children go to school，I feel that there is no future in going to school，No Cordyceps digging、Herding yaks to make money。The attendance rate of local primary and secondary schools is usually less than 20%。Every busy farming season，The most important task of teachers is to prevent students from skipping school、Dropout，Guaranteed attendance。
A few days ago，Chat with a classmate who works in the countryside of this county，Look at his photos of the countryside。Suddenly felt，I don’t think I have been to Tibet yet。Never been to the countryside once，I have never been to a Tibetan family，I have never chatted with an ordinary Tibetan，Can’t speak a word of Tibetan，Never eaten tsampa、Yak meat，Never drank butter tea。So，Although I have been working for more than half a year，My understanding of Tibet is still very superficial。
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Not very suitable for the current job，Maybe he failed to complete the role change from college student to civil servant，Failed to adapt to the government work environment，But I still feel that civil service is not suitable for me。After joining work，Always thinking，What do you really want to do，What is suitable for you，Every profession has its pros and cons，Still confused now。
Work five or six hours a day，Work is not very tiring，I still spend most of my time reading books。Thinking about it while at school，Find a place to live in seclusion for three to five years，Read bet365 live casino reviewino blackjackquietly，Maybe he can become a legend like the Shaolin sweeping monk。Now there is a chance，But I no longer have that peaceful state of mind。Most of the books I read are politics and law、Management，Very practical。Read a novel or a collection of essays quietly，Everyone thinks it is an extremely luxurious enjoyment。
Preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination at the end of the year，May be admitted to Peking University’s International Relations major。Always have a passion for Peking University，Being a professional diplomat has been my dream since childhood。I wanted to give up all my dreams，Be an ordinary citizen for the rest of your life。A friend encouraged me and said: "Dreams should never be discounted！”Very touched。Hold on，Even if you get nothing in the end，At least you won’t regret it in the future，Because I tried。
When I was young，In addition to youth and dreams，We have nothing。Out of school，Suddenly want to have everything，But realizing any dream is difficult，Most afraid of one day，No more dreams，No passion，Only the empty shell of the walking dead remains。Despite all difficulties，But I know this is a necessary process for growth，Must do meaningful things，Dream，Creation，Maybe failed，But I am more eager to succeed。